憤怒的怪獸

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Go take a chair and sit down cause I’m about to write shit tons in Chinese✪✪✪

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錯過了,又錯過了。

原本相信自己這次真的是萬念俱灰,憤怒受傷的心已不再抱有任何希望。

腦子轉呀轉,想的盡是自我了斷的方法。

好痛快啊,沒想到期待死亡的快感竟然比活著生不如死的枯沉還要讓我覺得自己是活著的!

「一死百了」,我一直都不認同這成語。自殺並無法解決什麼問題;但,至少,可以讓活著的人體會我不被了解的痛苦。自私嗎?你們才自私吧!

接續前段所言,我理應已臉色發青,懸掛在生死邊緣,但我此刻卻在這寫下無濟於事的感言,表示我沒有行動於我的衝動。

痛,我的心臟也感受到的痛。痛在我一再的相信身邊那些所謂的無能,相信還有希望,相信還有機會改變。現實卻一再的證明我的相信僅是濫情—毀滅殆盡的自尊心。

憤怒與絕望從受傷的心底湧出,淹沒也吞噬了我。我自胸口噴出長長的烈焰,想要你們體會我的痛苦,卻驚然發現,自己已囚禁於人煙荒誕之地。

你們,皆為鋼鐵之心?

錯過了,盡是折磨。

One Comment Add yours

  1. Michael says:

    I can see another Anngu livening inside ur brain, a totally different Anngu. What’s her real name? And who she is?

    I love to talk to Anngu, because I felt warm and happy in our conversations. Please ask Anngu back to talk to us, she knows we care about her, and we love her sincerely.

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